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Tuesday, 13 July 2010

  • Sex Withdrawals: What the What?

    So let me just get down to the nitty gritty. My boyfriend and I have sex A LOT. And, when it's that "time of the month," we still manage to do third base stuff. I've been taking a summer class to keep myself busy and I was supposed to be studying for my midterm so I didn't get to see him for a whole week. By Day 2, I had become quite antsy and unable to sleep or study--wanting to rearrange my room and clean everything, even though nothing needed to be cleaned. Soon after, I found myself baking cupcakes and sitting there making intricate designs. I continued to have this overwhelming need to clean and fix things around the house. Once I ran out of things to clean and fix and bake, I turned to cooking. I spent 2 hours straight cooking everything in my fridge and I wasn't even hungry--at all. By that point, I was going crazy and I still didn't know what was wrong with me. I even got to the point where I started drawing, but once I got distracted from that, I was unmotivated to start again. 

    Then, as I was texting with one of my friends, it finally clicked. I was having sex withdrawals. Around that same time, I was still complaining to my boyfriend that I couldn't stay still, but I hadn't said anything about my theory, and he was like, "yeah, you're having withdrawals." The thing was, it didn't even occur to me that I was missing it. But then I realized that, since it was the summertime and we had so much extra time on our hands, we started doing it more frequently and I guess I had gotten used to the pattern. 

    I never thought I would be such a sex fiend, but apparently I'm addicted. I've heard other people tell stories of people who needed to have sex to function and I used to think it was hilarious and crazy, but I guess because I'm with someone I have amazing sexual chemistry with (not to mention he treats me remarkably and we're compatible on so many other levels) I've become one of those people. So has anyone else suffered from sex withdrawal or heard about it and thought it was bologna? 

Saturday, 05 June 2010

  • Risking It All

    This is a blog in response to, Friendship First, Relationships Second. The claim brought up here basically seemed to say that, in order to have any chance at having a relationship that will work out, you have to be friends first. This isn't the first time I've heard this theory, I think my roommate has even talked to me about it a few times. Now, as I am experiencing this myself, I will proceed to talk about the flip side.

    Oh to the tall tale of not wanting to risk things because one person doesn't want the friendship to end, in the case that things don't work out. My story might be a little more perplexed than just friends realizing that maybe there's something more and questioning whether or not to pursue things. This guy that I'm going this trying era with isn't just my friend, he's one of my closest friends, if not the closest at the moment. He's there for me through everything and I can tell him, from minor problems with my roommates to medical issues that might get any guy running. But, not only am I able to talk to him about anything, I'm the only one he really opens up to and he's told me countless times how I'm his closest friend. This is on top of the fact that we're constantly talking throughout the day via text or online messaging. The problem is that we're not merely coming from a purely friendly relationship--we used to FWBs. So we're definitely comfortable with each other in all kinds of ways, to say the least.

    So our FWB relationship occurred on and off for awhile, for multiple reasons. And when we finally called it quits, we happened to stumble on the idea of how compatible we actually are for each other. We had always joked in the past about how I was going to have his cute babies or how we were going to buy a house together, but I figured it was all in the name of fun. I've always flirted with the idea that we could go into something a little more serious, but I think it's just recently hit him.

    And so now his biggest excuse is that he doesn't want to risk our friendship, which I completely understand. And, of course, I understand where he's coming from--this could be a big thing. Things could end disastrously. Either one of us is capable of hurting the other really badly. So we're stuck at this fork in the road. Comfortable with the way things are now, but wondering if we're missing out on something more. Personally, I'm a risk taker and he's kind of the more grounded one. I'd rather take the risk than always wondering what could happen.

    If you were in the situation, would you risk it all or would you play it safe?  

Sunday, 04 April 2010

  • The Bloom of a New Relationship: When is it too much?

       


    When two people begin dating, of course they want to spend as much as possible with each other and if they're not with each other, then they're using technology to stay in touch. My roommate would nag at me when I would spend all my time texting the guy I was "talking" to, always calling me out for being rude and not being completely "there." Now, it appears that it might have been jealousy or some thing along those lines.

    My dear roommate has recently started dating this guy who was our mutual friend for a few months. They began talking more often and progressively started  texting and hanging out quite often. By this time, I had cut down with the excessive texting by a lot, while her's grew. Of course I never called her out on it because I understand how it is when you're dating someone. However, it's gone way beyond excessive texting. It's excessive EVERYTHING.
    They spend every free second with each other. He's over here all the time. Every time I turn around, he's here. I would say the only time he goes home is to shower, but he doesn't even do that anymore. I see him ten times more than I see the guy I'm dating.

    I just find it ironic how she pestered me so much and now she's a lot worse than me. Today, she told me she was jealous of one of his close girl friends, who is also a friend of ours. Once I told her that she shouldn't even worry because he focuses all his time and attention on her, she said it still wasn't enough.

    I understand the implications that are required in a new relationship, but, at a certain point, you have to wonder when does it become too much? I know I'm not the best with being in a fully-committed relationship and I may not understand why so many couples find it necessary to spend every second of everyday with each other, so this is why I turn to the Datingish community. Do you agree that there is a limit to how much time you spend in a new relationship or do you think "love," for lack of a better term, has no bounds?  

Tuesday, 16 March 2010

  • Jealousy is Annoying, But a Little Reaction to Intimidation is Sweet

     
    Let me start off by saying that I am the anti-girly girl when it comes to relationships or guys in general. In fact, my roommate knew not to get all giddy when I told her about the guy I'm currently seeing. I don't believe in being obnoxiously spoiled or constantly attended to or all those other stereotypical wants and needs girls are "supposed to" have. I could go as far as saying that I'm on the verge to being a feminist, as well. All I ask for is a simple bit of TLC. I like things simple. I even get easily disgusted by too much cute-coupley stuff.

    With that said, the guy I am dating now knew all of that right off the bat, since I told him when we were just friends, and it appeared that it was his first time dealing with a non-clingy/needy girl. We even discussed our ideal relationships before anything happened and we both agreed we wanted something really simple. Something that didn't entail the mess of a title and a "so and so is now in a relationship with ____" facebook change. What we both found out we wanted was a serious-no-strings-attached-type of relationship. Now, that may sound confusing to many of you, but, to us, this ideal would just be like any other relationship without the title. Yes, some people want/need the title, but our thought was, if you want to be with someone, you should just be with them--no questions asked. I see now that, like many ideas in life, it is always better on paper than in real life.

    So this brings me to what's been on my mind: jealousy. I have had self-conflicting opinions on the thought of jealousy. Most of the time, when a person gets jealous of their SO, it sickens me. I can't stand it, and I never understood why it was necessary. With this guy, I kind of get it. Full on jealousy is still really annoying. In the beginning, he would get jealous and I would get extremely annoyed because my reasoning was, "Well he's not my boyfriend, so he has no right to get jealous." While I, in the meantime, would feel slight distaste for certain girls he talked to, but never felt very threatened by them. Then, one week, he purposely talked about his conversations with another girl to get me riled up. And, let me say, it sure did fire me up. Of course he called me out on my jealousy and I continued to deny it. But since then, I've come to realize that feeling a little intimidated and keeping each other on your toes is good for a relationship. Dare I even say it's...healthy.

    So my question is: Do you think a little reaction to a possible "threat" is sweet, in a sense that the intimidated person is expressing their desire for the other person?



Sunday, 25 January 2009

  • there's something good and something bad about having this as an anonymous blog. it's good that i can express all my feelings and deep, dark secrets to perfect strangers, but it's bad that these perfect strangers don't know me enough to understand the full extent of things and assume certain things. my mistake in my last blog was that i made myself look like a complete victim, when im not. i've contributed my share of wrongdoings with him. haha. i haven't been the perfect example of how a girl should like a guy that she wants to build a romantic relationship with. at the beginning, i didn't even want an actual relationship. i was just looking for some fun for my last summer before college. but he just assumed that we were headed down that road of being official. and by the time that hit me, he came to the logical conclusion that we shouldn't be in a relationship, especially because in a few months it would turn into a long-distance relationship. i was the one who decided to tell him the full on truth, probably a little too soon. from the start of things, i told him i was afraid of commitments and i jokingly told him that i had a girlfriend, but that was all pretend. i didn't go through that cautious phase, i kind of just dumped everything on him. but he did the same thing to me. and when things started to fade between us, i pulled the "i want to make him jealous" card and decided to spend my time texting other people while he was around me, making him feel like he wasn't special. in all honesty, im pretty glad i'm not stuck in a long distance relationship--we probably wouldn't have lasted. it doesn't mean i don't wish we were in a relationship sometimes or that i don't really miss him. it's just i know we're better off this way. and i appreciate the comments left by other people telling me that i need to get out of this situation and whatnot. and they know that i know, but i've made the decision to make a final decision with him come march, when he finds out if he gets in to my college or not. then things will be final. i hope. haha. i can't say anything for certain, but that's when i'll decide to continue things or end things. alright. that's all i had to say.

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